Life.. As we know it.

Hi. Awkward. Hi again.

It's been whut, a good 5 months since I've even ranted virtually. Didn't give myself a chance to do so ever since I deleted my twitter account, and probably blocked myself from the virtual world when I started at Delifrance. It is technically a good thing, because the virtual world? Hell it's a vicious cycle. Anything & everything goes nowadays.

Within the past 5 months of silence, I actually missed how it's like being able to put my thoughts into words. To finally get it off my chest instead of keeping it all instead. Who else can I go to? Friends? Of course I can, & I know that there are people there for me. But it's not like you meet them every day, it's not like you complain to every single little thing from how annoyed you are at your boss to your family to your relationship to yourself and all the other nitty gritty details. That's pretty much a chore for my poor friend's little ear..

So I've been confirmed at Delifrance Singapore, & it's been a good 4 months coming 5. Good doesn't represent how I've been in the company, but I love my colleagues there like Janis, Shah & Jess. They're the ones that probably will keep me in the company. But other than that, it's bye-bye. How time flies, I've been through so much shit than I could ever imagine. I really don't see a point in myself working there anymore, not that I don't like the place. It's just the system whereby I have to adhere to everything France says. Even design-wise, I can't do my own what I wanna design, at the end of the day, I still need their approval & if it ain't approved then I'll have to use their design. So what's the point of me cracking my brains when all I have to do is to listen & follow instructions. I'm probably just paid to change/edit the text, or to incorprate an image to the existing design. But I guess that's the thing about being under a brand, you have to follow closely to their branding & guidelines. The only toughest part is 'cus Delifrance is STILL in a process of re-branding, that only makes it tougher on me. I have to be the one to change EVERYTHING, but change not by my design, by theirs. Well, maybe I don't have to crack my brain a little bit more, but what can I learn? & not forgetting brands like Paul etc are all out in the market, and now we are with the same style as Paul. So won't we look like we're copying & trying too hard to look like those other similar brands out there?

Ah, doesn't really bother me. The only thing that annoys the shit outta me is the part where there are sooooooo many last minute changes. And some changes, which aren't in the least bit necessary, has to be changed. The thing about Delifrance? Being scared, not willing to take a step out and be bold. EVERYTHING has to be put in, ALL the text. We all know how "the more the merrier" makes sense, but when it comes to all these to be places in a design, it's "the lesser the better". & when there is lesser information, the staffs should be well-informed. I don't like Delifrance staff 'cus based on my personal experience of service, their customer service ain't even there.

I know I can go on and go, but I'll cut them some slack & leave this behind me.
Moving on..

Grandma passed away just a few months ago, in December. It wasn't shocking news but it was a very sad affair. Sad to know that our beloved cute & sweet little grandma is gone, and to also know that our Aunts & Uncles (some of them) are not on good terms. I'm sure it will hurt Ah Ma to see them that way. & it always happens after your mum/dad in the family is gone. What else can you argue about other than money? I never wanna end up that way. I know from a 3rd party's point of view, anyone can be politically right. But when we ourselves are in the situation, you won't realise how childish you are till you come to that kinda realization that will take awhile or more so, never. And then when it really becomes reality, and you are just the "little ones" who don't really have a right to speak, you'll feel clueless at what to do, how to salvage something that can't really be saved. Ah... Yup I'm in no position to say anything, this is a sibling-issue that only all the siblings can come together and settle it once and for all.

Shall....... vent it all out later, hopefully, 'cus my eyes won't be able to take a second look at the computer screen once I'm done with work. It's gona be a busy day here at Delifrance!