Life in a span of... words.

Once again I'm back, what else is this space for; Ranting, Reminiscing and Appreciating of course. It's been a crazy month, personally.

I've officially graduated from my 1-Year Design Degree Course in RMIT, many things happened I must admit, but it's been a fruitful social experience - to experience making mistakes, to learn from it, and eventually to grow.

I'm also officially gona start my full-time job too, as an in-house graphic designer at Delifrance. Yup, don't say a thing, I know right? Delifrance? But well, experience counts and if I never try, I'll never know. It's been tough job hunting, and I'm pretty tired of looking for a job already 'cus it's really time consuming, depressing and feels like being left on a shelf. So here's to Delifrance, for helping me, allowing me to stop wasting my time and start earning money so I can stop taking allowance and stop depending on people, especially when it's a loved one who's been working his ass off to provide for me as well as for himself. It may not be a high-paying job with marginal benefits, but I hope I'll excel, learn and of course most importantly, have a good working environment. 1st of September, soon much.

On a side note, I've been picking up on church recently. It feels good. I may not be a regular at church or neither am I so holy during mass, but I really feel like it's a good start. True, everyone's a sinner, we will never be pure. I hope I've cut down on being... a bad girl.

My next other happy thing. I've started on Yoga, like diligently. It may just be the Groupon voucher of 5 lessons at Casa Santonsa, but I must say, I really enjoy being there. Probably 70% goes to the instructor, Peggy, she's really nice. Maybe not the best Yoga place since I'm new to this and it's a pretty new company, but feeling good when I go there is already a plus point. I've been talking a lot about Yoga to my friends I think they're pretty irritated, and especially Fred. But Fred loves how I feel happier when I go for Yoga. I can't tell the difference but it's a headstart. "I think you should go sign up for more lessons, yoga really makes you happier" & I must admit, it makes me want to work out more, and keep fit, at the same time, allows me to be at ease, and be in the moment.

I am ( ) this close to getting the package rate at Casa Santosa, but the sad thing is that they don't have Hot Yoga. I've tried Restorative, Hatha & Yin Yoga. They are all pretty good, for now I like Hatha 'cus it's upbeat and gets you on your toes. It really works your body and muscles. Yin Yoga is more slow and steady in a way, it is probably similar to Hatha but you hold your poses longer, and it's more about finding the inner balance. Restorative really relaxes your mind, body and hmm soul? Best for a tiring day, maybe 'cus I didn't have a tiring day, I felt pretty refreshed, but like I just woke up kinda fresh.  $298 for 3 months any lessons I wish to go to, worth it? I think at the moment, it's pretty decent 'cus anyway it's a new company so they're probably testing out the crowd first.

4th Round of Hatha on Monday, pretty egg-cited yet scared at the same time 'cus I MIGHT just be the only student for that time slot, I don't really want to do yoga alone, I mean being the only learner there. But I know it's good 'cus I get full attention. HAHA.

Ok. And now the depressing part. Kiki flew away. I can't say that I'm not surprised, neither can I say that it will never happen. It may be a good thing, it may also be a bad thing, but the tormenting part is the fact that you're so attached to something, I won't even call Kiki a thing, and he just disappears from your life. For good. Not knowing if he'll be safe or alive. If he'll know how to find food, get some shelter and keep warm. I may not be the best owner, but I know I really love this bird. It wasn't easy when it started out because I've never kept a lovebird, but when I knew how attached it was to me, I probably closed a blind eye and trusted it to my fullest ability. Of course, my heart will skip double beats when he plays punk and fly to some tree. How I wish whatever that just happened never happened. But I guess that's my part, giving him back to nature.

I don't know how the days will go by, it's already the 3rd day. It has been a cold three days, indeed very depressing on my part because I'm feeling major worried, even until now. & I can't help but cry when I randomly lie in bed and think about it. It really hurts, 2.5years. The first day, probably reality hadn't sunk in yet, I had my hopes high that he would be like my previous bird, he would come back, he would know his way back home. But no...

Fred said he's gona buy me a new bird, but how is that going to be the same? But Yes, it'd be good company for KC though.

I know it's beyond my reach, but I really do hope that that someone up there who's looking down on all of us, will take a split second to look out for dear Kiki. He may just be a minor, but I really do hope he's doing well, at least.


xx